What not to be

As I sit and watch my soon to be 3 year old cruise around the house on his new bike, it makes me a little sad. I love that everyday he does and learns something new. I love that he has his own fun personality that cracks us up daily. I love that he tries to do everything by himself and wants to "help." I love him so much that it scares me.

I worry probably too much about how Gage will be when he grows up. This fear possibly stems from my junior high and high schools years. Do not get me wrong I had it great, I was a cheerleader, I had lots of friends, and had a very loving supportive family. I had difficulties with "guys" and my weight all throughout these years. I was called fat numerous times, mostly after a boy would break up with me. I was so self conscious about my weight and my boobs I would wear gurdles, & two bras. I thank god everyday for sending my best friend Tyler to come in and sweep me off my feet. It really is true, he puts certain people in your life for certain reasons. Looking back I now have enough knowledge to know that these "guys" were unhappy with their own lives. That doing that to me would only help them, and sadly I think it did. Now in my life I'm truly blessed with an amazing family, a healthy incredible boy, a husband that blows my mind, a beautiful house, two awesome jobs, and love! {I say "men" because in reality they're not even close}. These "men" are living exactly as they were in high school. Alone, broke, needy, rude, & pathetic, are a few words that come to my mind. From what I can see they're still degrading people and haven't changed a bit. I look back and think thank you Karma. I truly believe if you bully in any sort of way it will come back and bite you in the ass.

So you ask why am I posting this? What's my point? Well maybe this post will get to someone who is struggling. Do I think this will change any form of bullies and the way they think? no. I'm mainly posting this with the goal to raise Gage to be exactly like his dad. You can really tell the real men from the boys by the way they act. You would never catch Tyler making fun of someone. You would never catch him belittling a women. You would never catch him making jokes at others expense. Gage will grow up to have respect, he will be taught to help, and to love.

Whoever is reading this we all need to stop encouraging bullies. We need to put them in their place. Thankfully I was able to move on because of many things. I still struggle with weight more then I should. I blame that mainly on these experiences. Start thinking if you've used the word fat towards someone else recently, I know I haven't.